umbralillium: (Misha light in the darkness)
Title: Tired of This Loneliness
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Charlie/Colby, past Don/Billy, OMC/OMC, Ian Edgerton/OMC, Billy Cooper/OMC
Warnings: character death, mention of suicide, mention of violence, graphic M/M sex
Disclaimer: My name is not Nicolas Falacci or Cheryl Heuton, therefore anyone you recognize is not mine.
Word Count: ~14,500
Summary: The trials and tribulations of Jacob Eppes.
Notes: Title is from Coldplay's Lost!. There is a bit of a time jump that pretty much skips over the majority of the actual series, but I am working on tags for some of the episodes (not all, that'd take too long and this has taken long enough already). This was actually completed back in October (on my birthday, no less), it's just taken me this long to get fed up with my own insecurities over it and post it.
Betas: [ profile] jestana and [ profile] authoressnebula *points* That's how nervous I was about this, I only bug Neb to beta for me if I'm really worried people won't like it.

Master Post Here
umbralillium: (NA Amsterdam)
A lecturer when explaining stress management to an audience, raised a glass of water and asked "How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 20g to 500g.

The lecturer replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance.
In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."

He continued, "And that's the way it is with stress management. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on. "

"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden."

"So, before you go to bed tonight, put the burdens of life down. Don't carry it home.
You can pick it up tomorrow. Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you can."

So, my friend, Put down anything that may be a burden to you right now.. Don't pick it up again until after you've rested a while.

Here are some great ways of dealing with the burdens of life:

* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.

* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.

* Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.

* Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.

* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.

* If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

* It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply be kind to others.

* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.

* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.

* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.

* The second mouse gets the cheese.

* When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.

* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.

* We could learn a lot from crayons.. Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names, and all are different colours, but they all have to live in the same box.

*A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour. Have an awesome day and know that someone has thought about you today
umbralillium: (Chris Kane eyeliner)
Title: Bartenders' Discretion
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Ben/Brian
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: None
Spoilers: None
Summary: In which someone gets pushy and Ben gets creative.
Notes: I had a snapshot of a scene in my head and it kind of snowballed from there.
Beta: [ profile] jestana
umbralillium: (Benji Flash'verse)
Title: Reconnecting
Pairing: Ben/Brian
Rating: Light R
Spoilers: overall series spoilers, nothing past season four, though
Summary: Don encounters Ben in difficult circumstances
Notes: Um, this is an AU of my Flash!verse. *faceplant* Yes, I made an AU of my own AU. NOT my fault, it's just what came out when I finally got inspired for the Rewind prompts on [ profile] numb3rs100.
Written for the [ profile] numb3rs100 June Rewind prompts Las Vegas, Black Sheep, Hangover, and Wife
Beta: [ profile] jestana


Jun. 2nd, 2009 10:05 am
umbralillium: (John Barrowman Dance)
Today went from meh to FANFUCKINGTASTIC in .2 seconds. Why? Because of this! \o/



*HUGS* Hope you have a fantastic day, sweetie.
umbralillium: (Charlie this is what's in my head)
I've been so spammy lately. *hangs head in shame*

cut for thoughts pertaining to last week's and night's Supernatural )
umbralillium: (Chris Kane *giggle*)
spoilers for last night's Numb3rs behind the cut )

ION, Professor Padgett is proving me wrong about math. O.O

WIP meme

Mar. 6th, 2009 02:18 pm
umbralillium: (random imaginationwilltakeyoueverywhere)
Snagged from all over, I'm sure. Hopefully this might inspire me to finish some of these.

Post a single sentence from each WIP you have (or as many as you want to pick). No context, no explanations. No more than one sentence!

1) "I believe you still owe me a blowjob, big brother,"

2) For a moment, fire was superimposed over the darkness of the room and his heart tripped.

3) "Charlie, running away won’t solve anything,"

4) He completely missed the 'experiment in progress' sign on Dr. Savetky's lab door and walked right in.

5) "I just wanted to forget for a while," he said, huddling in on himself.

6) Opening his mouth to Billy's searching tongue, Ben rocked his hips against the older man's.

7) It doesn't feel like nearly six years since he died.

8) He really did not want to be in the building if Agent Gibbs met Agent Emrick.

9) He figured Sophie and Parker might enjoy ogling his bare chest, anyway.
umbralillium: (Benji eyeliner)
Title: Surprise
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Ben/Brian/Trent
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: M/M/M sex, incest, humiliation through dirty talk
Summary: Ben surprises Brian and Trent
Notes: FINALLY! I've had this thing sitting on my hard drive for forever. I actually got inspired to finish it Saturday night, two minutes before dinner was ready. *headdesk* And then I got stuck on it, again. But, during the slash chat on Sunday afternoon, I got it finished. HUZZAH!
Beta: [ profile] jestana
umbralillium: (Chris Kane eyeliner)
Title Assessing the Damage
Fandom: Numb3rs
Pairing: Ben/Brian/Trent
Rating: PG
Warnings: Mentions of violence, implied incest, alternate universe
Spoilers: None
Summary: Brian and Tren do a little fussing
Notes: Third in the 'Situation' drabble series. Only took me…four months to finally write it. *sheepish*
Written for [ profile] numb3rs100, prompt #161 – Damages.
Beta: [ profile] jestana, as per usual.

Title: Good Situation
Fandom: Numb3rs
Pairing: Ben/Brian/Trent
Rating: PG
Warnings: mentions of violence, implied incest, alternate universe
Spoilers: none
Summary: Ben goes 'home' and, eventually, takes a nap
Notes: Last one! Huzzah! I actually wrote this one before Assessing the Damage. I hadn't intended to write Assessing the Damage, but I got a line from Assessing and it wouldn't go away, so yeah. Four drabbles instead of three in this series. *rolls eyes at self*
Written for [ profile] numb3rs100 prompt #199 – Inside
Beta: [ profile] jestana
umbralillium: (Default)

"Fidelity": Don't Divorce... from Courage Campaign on Vimeo.

I'd offer ya'll a reward for passing it along, but my muse has been practically non-existent. Either way, you all know how close this is to my heart and how much it pained me that Prop 8 passed. Please, sign the petition to help us get Prop 8 overturned and keep Ken Starr from breaking up thousands of marriages.
umbralillium: (Misha light in the darkness)
Title: So It Begins
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Rating: G
Spoilers: none
Warnings: OCs only, canon characters mentioned but not present
Summary: Jacob gets recruited
Notes: Another piece of Jacob's backstory, gearing up to a larger story that I will eventually post. Maybe. If I can get my courage up. *sheepish* Thanks to [ profile] authoressnebula for the cheerleading.
Beta: [ profile] jestana
umbralillium: (Benji Flash'verse)
Title: Talking it Out
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Ben/Brian/Trent
Rating: G
Warnings: mention of M/M/M threesome that includes two brothers
Summary: Ben talks things over with Alan
Notes: I'm very ashamed to say this has been sitting on my computer for three weeks. *sheepish* But! It's fortuitous because I was able to work the latest TtM prompt in without having to spam Pethron with this fic and the one where Ben talks to Justine about it just so I'll keep with my resolution to post this arc in chronological order.
Written for [ profile] tamingthemuse
Beta: [ profile] jestana, but I added to it after she took a look-see, so any other mistakes are mine.
umbralillium: (Dean gonna cry)
Title: Draw Thy Breath in Pain
Fandom: The Magnificent Seven
Pairing: Chris/Vin
Rating: R
Warnings: character death, slash
Spoilers: 2x13 Obsession
Summary: Buck remembers
Notes: Don't blame me! The moment I saw the new prompt on [ profile] tamingthemuse, my mind went there and I couldn't stop my fingers from writing it. *ducks and covers* Title from the last scene of Hamlet.
Written for [ profile] tamingthemuse
Beta: [ profile] jestana
umbralillium: (Charlie brood)
Title: Statistical Probabilities
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Ben/Brian/Trent, Charlie/Colby
Rating: light R
Warnings: language, implied incest, M/M/M slash
Spoilers: 5x08 Thirty-Six Hours
Summary: Ben is called on to help
Notes: I think this was the quickest episode response I've ever written. I usually try and write Ben into the episodes, but there wasn't much of a place for him during the ep itself, so I went off the look on Charlie's face at the end of the episode.
Written for [ profile] tamingthemuse
Beta: [ profile] jestana
umbralillium: (Jared Leto distant)
Title: Dreams of Possibilities
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Ben/Brian/Tren
Rating: PG
Warnings: incest, threesome
Spoilers: none
Summary: Ben has a daughter…maybe?
Notes: at the end to avoid spoiling the story for ya'll
Written for [ profile] tamingthemuse
Beta: [ profile] jestana
umbralillium: (Captain Jack)
Okay, so maybe that's exaggerating, but I get all philosophical (read:preachy, I really need to shut up about 8, huh?) when I think.

Anyway, last week I think I mentioned that one of the characters on Knight Rider dressed up as Captain Jack Harkness for Halloween. Of course, people posted about it on a couple of my Torchwood comms and one of the members commented that she was disappointed that they focused on Jack's 'omnisexuality' more than anything else.

I was thinking about it and, really, it makes sense that they focused on Jack's sexuality because Americans are so hung up on sexuality. For more than a century, we got hung up on race, before that it was about Brits. We love having something to piss on another person about. Think about it, a very common insult these days is 'you're so gay.' If a guy is seen as anything other than completely masculine, people think he's gay. If a woman tends to dress in a masculine manner, people think she's a dyke.

Some time since Nov. 4th, I'm not entirely sure when, Keith Olbermann made a Special Comment concerning Prop 8. I won't go into all of it, you can watch the video on YouTube for that, but the thing that stuck with me the most was that he said it's a civil rights issue, and he's completely right. It's not about children, it's not about the church. It's about a majority denying a minority a basic human right. He also brought up a point that I made last week: how would straight people like it if we were the majority and denied them the right to be married? Would they stand for it? NO. If it hadn't passed, would the proponents just accept that? NO. So really, is it any wonder that we've taken Prop 8 to court?

I'm usually pretty content living in the IE, but I really wish I lived in LA county so I could go to the rallies and show my support that way since I don't have the money to donate to the cause.

Most of you probably know this already, but this isn't an abstract issue for me, it's not an issue that I associate with strangers. I have two wonderful friends on LJ who are a couple, though they don't live in California. I'm pretty sure half the women on my friends list are bisexual. Hell, I'm bisexual. I have a woman that I love very much. This issue is about me and the people in this world who are like me. If the most progressive state in the Union can't stand up for a minority, what hope do the people in other states who will eventually face this issue have? Massachusetts started it. It's California's duty to keep it going, to set an example for everyone else in this country that we all love so much.

I haven't lost hope that I will eventually have the right to marry the woman I love, if we ever get to that point. Why? Because the majority of my country had the good sense to elect a man who is from a minority group, who is progressive, who bloody well said 'no' on 8. That's what made me vote for President-Elect Obama. Not because he's black, or progressive. I honestly didn't read what he does or does not support. That ad I saw on TV for No on 8 with Obama's picture was what made my decision. In his own vlog about 8 passing, Sam Harris said that the Yes campaign took audio clips and spliced them together to make it sound like Obama supported 8 on the bot recordings. He did not. How many people said 'yes' because of those bots? How many people destroyed a lot of other people's hopes because the Yes campaign lied? Too many.

This is probably very foolish to post unlocked, but my real name is Susan Ward and Proposition 8 passing hurt me very deeply. If you didn't know anyone who was affected by it, now you do. I hope anyone who voted yes who sees this post realizes the enormity of what they've done; how many people they've hurt, and feel ashamed.

If anyone wants to post a link to this, feel free. I, personally, will not be going around spamming communities with it, but I think that people need to know what's at stake.
umbralillium: (Chris Kane eyeliner)
Step One
Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two
Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals, or holiday_wishes) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

I've been meaning to do this, so here it is. My top ten things I want for Christmas

Behind the cut )

I just watched a couple MB20 vids on youTube. Things were so much simpler in the 90s.
umbralillium: (Jared Leto fangirl orgasm)
Title: Riding
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Ben/Brian/Trent
Rating: R
Warnings: threesome, incest, alternate universe
Summary: Brian and Trent have a couple surprises for Ben.
Notes: for [ profile] tyler_logan, I managed to fit all three prompts in! Visual aids are at the end of the fic, except for the handcuffs, those are just your standard issue metal cuffs. ^__~
Beta: [ profile] jestana


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