No matter what I say

Title: Tired of This Loneliness
Fandom: Numb3rs AU
Pairing: Charlie/Colby, past Don/Billy, OMC/OMC, Ian Edgerton/OMC, Billy Cooper/OMC
Warnings: character death, mention of suicide, mention of violence, graphic M/M sex
Disclaimer: My name is not Nicolas Falacci or Cheryl Heuton, therefore anyone you recognize is not mine.
Word Count: ~14,500
Summary: The trials and tribulations of Jacob Eppes.
Notes: Title is from Coldplay's Lost!. There is a bit of a time jump that pretty much skips over the majority of the actual series, but I am working on tags for some of the episodes (not all, that'd take too long and this has taken long enough already). This was actually completed back in October (on my birthday, no less), it's just taken me this long to get fed up with my own insecurities over it and post it.
Betas: jestana and authoressnebula *points* That's how nervous I was about this, I only bug Neb to beta for me if I'm really worried people won't like it.

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